Hi everyone. I just joined but I have been always on here reading peoples posts. I've been an emetaphobic for as long as I could remember and the last time I got S* when I was 8 years old. (I'm 17) my fear only went as far as seeing other people being s* and not going into public bathrooms because i'm afraid someone might run in and V* next to me. It never affected my life in terms of being afraid to go places and just live a normal life. Or if someone said they feel queasy or if they act like they might be S* my heart would start pounding and I would think of ways to leave. It was always just being concerned about other people. I never ever felt N* myself. About 4 weeks ago, I had my very first panic attack while eating dinner and I felt hot and weird and almost like I couldn't breath I was sitting at my kitchen table and literally just pushed myself away and ran right outside. I also noticed that while it was happening I kept on swallowing and I felt tingling in my face (It's really hard for me to right this right now) and I thought I was N* I think that's what made my heart pound faster and I kept getting flushed with anxiety I was so scared because I never ever experienced anything like that before. After that I started shaking and crying because I was in shock and it just happened out of no where. Over the past couple of weeks my appetite greatly decreased, I'm afraid to go out to stores and be in the car. The only place that I do actually convince myself to go is CBT therapy which I just started. I have good and bad days but this is generally what is happening. The second most terrifying panic attack I had was while I was with my mom in a store. I thought I was N* but I didn't feel anything in my stomach and I got these wierd sensations like I was about to... and all of a sudden I got a full blown panic attack, I went outside and sat on the bench for almost an hour and a half before I was ready to get back into the car and go back home. The only place I wanted to be in that moment was home but I was scared that if I went into the car I would get N* again or have an attack in the car. I made it home that day but that was the beginning of my fear for going out and being in a public place away from home. Sometimes I have anxiety attack out of nowhere for no reason and then it triggers my fear of getting N* or first I think of N* and then it triggers a panic attack. If someone with similar experiences could reply and give me some advice that would be really helpful. Everyday, having an anxiety attack is always on my mind as well as N* Sometimes if I think about it too much thats what triggers it but I just don't know how to get my mind off it. Ever since my first panic attack my life took a 180 degree turn around. Please Help. Thank You.