wow, eternity, I remember you.


you really sound like you are struggling to find answers here. I agree with the person who asked you what choices you had left, if you refuse the two best options to get better? where does that leave you?


you need to realize that asking someone for help is a very couragous thing to do, ans I'm sure you will get more support from your loved ones than you realize right now.


my heart goes out to you, and I hope everything turns out okay!