Quote Originally Posted by anna81 View Post
I'm not judging you in any way, its such a shame your emet was so bad you had a termination. It must have been such a hard decision to make. I was just wondering, is it only yourself v'ing that concerns you? I have 2 children and the thought of them v'ing terrifies me! I don't want to scare you in any way, but once the pregnancy is over you may then have a whole new situation to be anxious about. Maybe you should seek some help with your emet before trying to get pregnant again.
It isn't just me, I'm scared of anything to do with sick.. Even seeing it on TV. We went to my boyfriends mums house for a family dinner last week and his little nephew was there.. He started to cry and wouldn't say why. I was literally dying from anxiety (but felt like I couldn't leave or do anything) because I thought he was going to be sick. I have no idea how I'd cope with sick kids 😞
mayne im just never meant to be a mum.
if I'm being honest the termination wasn't a hard choice.. I hated my pregnancy for making me so ill, I felt no connection to the baby or happiness. Just intense fear. To have the termination didn't even feel like a choice.. It felt like the only thing to do. I would have killed myself if I had to carry on like that, I know it it was making me very depressed to be that constantly anxious and feeling so out of control.
I want a family.. I just have no idea what to do.. I came looking for a way to get around it but now I just feel more hopeless lol! ..and I have had 2 rounds of cbt.. The current one is helping but only a little.
Does anyone else ever feel sick and their head just goes someplace else?! Like you feel so detached from everything and the fear is overwhelming?? X