I don't at all think you're mad. I just think you've let this stuff get out of hand and need help with getting better. Can you have your doc maybe write you a script for something to relax you and have him refer you to a therapist? You could maybe take the medication before leaving and going to get help with someone other than him.


I don't want you to hurt yourself. There must be a lot of pain inside of you to want to make yourself bleed. I remember those days... Even anxiety can build up and become pain and depression. I just want you to get help and realize that sometimes people need to reach out to professionals for the help they need. I understand not wanting to forever be hooked on medication, but perhaps you should look into it to get over this hump. The only thing is that I am a firm believer in medication only in conjunction with therapy and we still have to figure out how to get you to therapy.