thank you so much, that actually made me tear up because i do not feel strong. Yes we do live together and her getting sick caused me to almost kind of relapse if thats even possible? i was feeling much better until she started v*ing. I started dry heaving(dh?) and panicking and wound up back in the ER for more fluids and Zofran. the nurse was absolutely awful to me. saying that "its just the flu. v*ing isn't that bad". and i told her yeah not for you but to me its like i am going to die. so i left without even seeing the ER doctor. :/ But i am home now and feeling a little better. still kind of dh but i think that its more from my anxiety than anything else. my mom thinks it may be from the amount of zofran i took yesterday mixed with the ativan? i'm not sure but i'm scared to take either now. but i have been practicing my breathing and that has calmed me down a lot from this morning.

thank you so much for your reply, it truly means so much. <3 hugs!