Hi! *waves*
Um... I came here because im getting tired of this. I am nowhere near as severe as a lot of people. I dont cut food out of my diet, i dont worry about being sick in public and look for ways out or anything. I just have a plain ol phobia of the actual vomiting itself. In the past 10 years i have had food poisening, alcohol poisening and all sorts but have not vomited once. You might think, well thats fine nothing to worry about. But the reason is because i will force myself not to. I know every trick in the book to stop myself vomiting. But sometimes i wish i could. When you feel really ill, its the best thing for you. But i have panis attacks when i start to feel nauseas, i will sit in the bathroom for hours and hours because i am so scared.I hate travelling because i always feel ill and i overdose on travel medication every time, just in case.
I would love to be free from this fear, but to do that id have to face it right? And i dont want to face it. Its a catch 22. I want to be free, but i cant bring myself to face my fear. What do i do?
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