Introducing Myself...

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That freaking toddler pic really messed with my head haha they should have warned us!!!

You sound very chilled compared to the usual intro stories and I'm curious to see/know how you deal with a n* attack...... I thought I was like you in that I was ok with myself doing it but Nah...in Feb it nearly happened and I wanted to die haha....

I'm also like you in that it doesn't rule my life....at least not anymore, one year Norovirus took my friends by storm and it sent me into a horrific state where I lost 24 pounds within about six weeks as I was petrified of eating and getting sick....

Yeah, I don't think it's right to have a graphic pic like that in an article. And yeah, it's crazy because in my family and friends, I'm as bad as it gets. But come to find, there are actually plenty of people much more intensely phobic about it than me. I get sick about once every two years. I usually just do it once and feel 100% better. It never bothers me! I actually prefer doing it over the nausea. I've even tried making myself do it when nauseated, but I couldn't. Wow! That sounds awful. I really just fear others doing it. And I've had that happen at least twice, and I cried and hated it. But my worst fear honestly is to be in a situation where someone did it on me and/or not being able to get away (like on a ride ) I honestly hope if that ever happened (I PRAY it doesn't) that I'd pass out from the anxiety so I wouldn't have to be conscious through it lol. One thing I forgot to mention is my dad is/was actually emetophobic too. It's weird because when I became emetophobic I don't think I knew he was. But then it's possible his phobia further influenced mine after I found out (not sure, there didn't seem to be any conscious influence). I remember him taking me and my siblings to the movies when I was 10 and telling us he was going to warn us when to cover our eyes on a scene where it happens because he thought it was kind of gross. And I remember him telling me how he hated them putting it in movies. I found out he had the same fears as me, like someone might do it with motion or heat sickness whenever we went to amusement park, etc. Recently (like within the last month) he actually told me it didn't really bother him anymore. That it didn't bother him in movies/tv at all and in general he just wasn't as bothered by it. He said he didn't know if it was just age or what. I feel really glad for him because I'm very protective, and I'd always fear for him too, maybe even more than for myself.