So i've had anxiety, regular panic attacks, and depression for about ten years now. I also have crippling emetophobia.
About a year and a half ago i began experiencing vertigo, i was bed ridden last january and then again this june, but haven't thrown up this entire ten years. Somehow.
I have a specific appointment in two days (tuesday) to test my vertigo to get more answers and apparently some people do get sick from the tests because they're violent and stressful and make you dizzier to moniter you.
I've been off work the last month and a half for my vertigo because i do labour work and i can't do that while dizzy. but the last two weeks i've been nauseated and having a hard time eating, and everything got even worse when i got told about this appointment last week. I actually cried when i got off the phone with the doctor.
I do not feel i am ready to be faced with this phobia, i do not feel strong enough and i am SO terrified it's effected everything. I have gone backwards. This phobia limits everything I do, I can't drive long distances without panicking, I can't eat regularly, I can't do the things I want to do. But to have to count down the days until i might get sick is just mean.
Just needed to share with people who understand.
i don't know what i'm going to do.
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