Don't be sorry for ranting @thecheesecake17 i know exactly how you feel. Last night my son (6) had a bit of a fever and was just very very sleepy. He didn't v* or have d* but I was on edge the whole night. He slept for 6 hours but was moving around alot. I just froze whenever he moved. It awful living with this fear. Like I can't even be around my poor son if he is sick. And some people must think I am an awful mother. But unless anyone knows what it's like to live with this fear then they will never ubderstand. It makes you feel so alone I think. It mostly bothers me when anyone around me is sick, more than myself. Obvi I hate it myself and I cry etc. But if anyone around me is sick I run out of the room, hide and pin my eyes shut and cover my ears. I'm 27 and people think I am insane.