I know what you're talking about. I do the same thing. The only difference is that it's different meds. Once again it isn't addictive. (Tylenol) For people like us, taking these meds help us and maybe the only way to escape the panic attacks. You know that the feeling will go away when you take the meds. It's why you're always drawn towards them. I do try to put some constraint on myself with the pills but I can't stop myself.