Yep, emetophobia sure can suck. Especially when it ruins your life. I'm the same way, I take tylenol almost everyday. I too have had this fear for over 10 years. (It started off when I was in preschool. Where my eating disorder started) You shouldn't feel ashamed about it. Emets like us are just misunderstood by the world. School is an absolute nightmare! You can to the right place to talk about it. It's way more easy to communicate with others about the problem when it's not face to face. I'm unusually to shy to even face my teacher. Or anyone for that matter.