Holiday: traumas and triumphs!

[fliss]

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Hi guys,


Well I think it's time I told you about my holiday experiences. I decided (well was kind of forced) to go on holiday to the South of France with my family. So to get down there, because I wont fly or go on a boat we had to go all the way by train. So we went under to channel and that only took 20minutes so I managed to control myself. Then came the journey overnight on a rickety old sleeper train[img]smileys/smilies_03.gif[/img].


Well I took diazepam which helped a little, but then when it wore off I took more and quickly took as much as I was able to in one day! The train basically lurched for 12 hours and it made me feel SO motion sick. I mean Ive never suffered from motion sickness ever before so I was wondering if my emet had brought that on too! [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]


So we finally got there and I thought I was going to v* big time it's only because I didnt eat anything that I didnt. And we had to walk through crowds of people and I was sure i would v*, and people would see me-this being a big fear for me.


The actual holiday was OK and I managed to get out and not suffer from my agrophobia too badly. However, I refused to get back on that train for the return journey. So my dad drove me 1000 miles back through France! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img](dad comes to the rescue again). AND I really cant use public toilets in service stations as I fear hearling someone v* in the toilet next to me. So I had to go in bushes [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img].


Oh well, another year before I have to take a holiday somewhere again [img]smileys/smilies_05.gif[/img]


Shouldnt they be fun experiences?


Fliss x</TD></TR>
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[tcsarah]

Hey, Fliss, I know exactly what you mean! I used to feel exactly the same way about holidays - sheer dread. I used to dread the journey andhow I'd cope when I got there (having battled with agorophobia myself) - the thought of being so far away from homepetrified me. The only way I got through it was by taking loads of anti-anxiety drugs, then I'd be walking round like a zombie all the time! I would see everyone around me getting excited about going on holiday, and there I was wishing the whole thing was over and done with.


I say 'used to' as I am a lot better now (thanks to finding the right anti-depressantsthathelp me tremendouslywith anxiety and panics). I still get worked up about going away but nothing I can't cope with and I actually manage to enjoy any holidays I go on now!


The positive thing is, Fliss, is that despite all your worries and fears, you went away anyway - that takes guts and strength of character. The real problems start when we start refusing to go... You also sound like you have a very understanding family, which always helps.


Tracey x

[x hannah x]

Yeah go Fliss! Don't you hate the way emet does that? Experiences that are meant to be fun become something that has to be survived.

[woodsy]

hey fliss, yeah holidays should be fun and relaxin, but when your at the state of mind like we all are its difficult!


its not a holiday but i went to a soccer six match because my fave girl group (clea) were playing there. i could not enjoy it because of feelin sick, what if im sick, where can i be sick etc. And also felt sick all the way up there to the match too! i took a carrier bag with me for reassurance.


Just try to enjoy it, we only live once, this isnt a rehearsal why should we have to be bogged down with this fear. When im at my strongest i just think ya know what sod it, if im sick someone can clean it up for me. im gonna enjoy myself, dunno if that helps!