Hey ems, I'm sorry you are having panics a lot. But you are not a failure, like sage said if you need it you need it, nothing wrong w/ getting help and using what works for you. Good luck in finding a therapist, I'm sure you will and it will be worth the wait! As for the job good luck in that! It's great to be excited about something!
\"As soon as you trust yourself,you will know how to live.\"
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
\"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.\"
Benjamin Franklin