I wish I could say when mine started. I was afraid of being sick, seeing other people being sick so on since I was 18 months. When I told my mom a few months ago that there was a name for what I have been feeling all my life, she told me story of when I was at my nana's and I burped up my breakfast. She said I totally freaked out. It seemed to step from about there. When I was 3 I knew where all the bathrooms were and if I felt at all queasy (I felt it a lot it turned out that I had mono) I wouldn't go anywhere without a bag or bucket. The thing is I never got sick.


It got worse one year when my brother took me and his family to Oregon on a car trip. I was about 9 I discovered that there was something called being car sick. I had been fine in cars (sort of) but once I discovered this I was terrified to be a passenger. Fortunatly my sister in law had Gravol. (My introduction to this wonderful drug)


I use to go to school across the road will Middle school then I got a ride. I HATED IT but it wasn't too too far. THEN highschool came and I had to catch the bus. Then came the day I was terrified of the bus.


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I climbed onto the bus and it smelled awful like someone opened a container of old rotten cheese and socks all the windows were open. THEN i realized what it was. someone had been sick....And was sick again half way there. I heard them. I was freaked and shaking. I fortunatly had a seat to myself in the front.


I always made sure that I was "accidently late" for the bus so my dad could take me. I got my license to drive and saved for a car as hard as I could and as soon as I truned 16I didnt have to take the bus.


i missed out on a lotI know but it didn't curb me from being in competitive synchronized swimming. I am a gold medal winner for western Canada. It is my one glory besides schooling I have. I never told anyone why I didn't like parties so I spent my days at home studying. Yeah I guess because of my EMET and claustrophobia I was a geek. I missed all the partys and after grad parties even. I never went to clubs or bars.


I moved to Vancouver and met a guy that was not at all what I needed. HE made my life worse and I hated the city. I because so bad I couldn't leave the apartment to go a block to the store. i would get almost 1/2 a block from home and have to turn around. I just got fat and miserable. It was him though that convinced me to go to the doctor. I was able to find a med for my claustrophobia, anxiety and agoraphobia. I never told anyone about being afraid of V**** because I thought I was the only one.


I met a guy through a friend of a friend and he was sooo wonderful. He had worked with my ex and so had the friend and he knew me I just didn't know him right away. I wish I would have met him first. He is my rock. We are married and have a baby. Imagine that. LOL I survived. I never wanted children. I didn't want to deal with them being sick or the morning sickness from having the baby. I did though. I think between this site and dealing with the care of my family AND being out of the city I am almost cured. I have bad days but most are good now.


Thanks anyone who read all this I blab a lot but I realize now that even if no one did I feel better having written it. BIG hugs to everyone.


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