I agree with you Aar13, It is very helpful to know that I am not alone in my struggle with this awful phobia. I just came clean to my husband about it and to my surprise he was very supportive and understanding. He also told me, that had I come to him earlier about this that he wouldn't have given me a hard time about being away and assured me that the next time, I was free to stay away as long asI needed to, because he loves me and understands that how I feel is how I feel and what I am going through is just apart of me. I was so happy to know that he understands, because afterall I was sure he was going to poke fun or think I was some kind of weirdo. I appreciate all of your support and hope that I too can be of some support to you as well. I thank God that I have found this site after so long of searching for answers. Take Care All.