A while ago someone on here told my best friend for me...cos I didn't dare but I needed someone to know and understand.
Although I've never really told her (we don't speak much if at all) I love her for it. hehe. I'd never have been able to do it without her. And it was great when it was out in the open. My friend suddenyl realised why I never stayed round hers...and knew it was nothing personal.
She's the only person that truly knows...and she's kinda dismissed it assuming that cos I don't talk about it it's gone.
I once told my mum that the phobia had a name, and purposely left a paper out on the table. and she told me I was overreacting. She knows I get freaked out and does things to help me avoid v* but she's never truly believed me no does she know the extent it affects me. I think she just think it only bothers me when it's happening. I wish.
My dad...I don't see him much...but strangely I kinda half told him. He'd been upset that I stopped staying round...and we'd had huge arguments. So one night on the way home I told him...and he told me he used to be the same...as did my grandad. Whether it's true and it does run in families I don't know.
xxx. wow. long post. sorrry. xxx.
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