Well i have just read these post and they have brought so many different emotions,I've cried,got alot of inspirations from people story's and situations and courage to carry on!!!!...


Well my story is, i only really had a problem as in thephobia took over my life,3yrs ago.I was working for British Airways as a supervisor and had a lot of pressure with passangers aswell as staff,and i was due to take some holiday so thats what i did,i had a week off and remember travelling to bristol to go to Ikea....I had a terrible pannic attack while i was in there and i had, had these feelings for a long time but didn't know what they were!!!! when i got back thats when my life fell apart i became tired,depressed,angry and constantley pannick all the time,so i trotted off to my doctor and he said that i needed to go on anti-depressents....I tried the tablets the next day, and i spent the whole day in bed worrying that i was going to be sick and the feeling was just so over whelming.As u can probably understand i was worried about being sick because of the side affects of the tablets....After that day everything became so obssesive.....In the End i had 6mths off work,but instead of getting better i was just worrying the whole time as i had a morgage and needed to work to pay for it.....So i forced myself to go back to work and pretended that i felt better....But i wasn't!!!!! I returned to work witha new boss and she made my life hell,she stuck me back in uniform and on shift on my own of an evening with no other staff.....And as some people will know Airports are not the sort of place to be on your own with drunk passangers......Of course i couldn't cope and they sacked me in the end.........Well as this had been my life for the past 5yrs and i loved that job i was devastated.....I lost all my confidence and noticed i didn't even want to go out as the aniexty was getting worse again.Loads of different things happened,my boyfriend and i split up,i fell out with brother and i felt suicidal!!!!! I tried to pick myself up after the new year and tried to get a new job but my aniexty was taking over my life and i was scared of having a pannic attack in front of anyone ,as i've always worked in customer services this was difficult.....I found a job as a receptionist working for a chiropractors for 3mths and i loved to work again and my life looked like it was improving but once again i couldn't handle things and left.....


I was in town one day with my mum in the most warmest shop ever no air con and this wave came over me so quick....i got hot and sweaty,nauseaous and felt like i was going to faint.i dropped the basket and ran out and told mum i wasn't feeling well,i just wanted to run as far away as possible,it felt like ages for my mum to come out the shop and when she did i just drove home so fast,shaking and feeling like i was going to lose control.........That was the downside for me as i became agrophobic.......I didn't want to leave home i was pannicking all day for no reason i lost nearly 2 stone,didn't want to eat and that was 2yrs now.....I've seen many different therapist,social workers,Community nurses and nobody seems to help.....they just shout at me or tell me to pull myself together..........I've lost my mum through all this as we just argue about my problems and how she gets frustrated that she can't help me!!!! And i cry as i write this as my mum is my rock, i really miss her,but i know i need to do this on my own.....She's my friend and my dear mum and i miss her soooooooooo much!!!!!!! but things became so bad and i came across this website don't ask me how i did but it's been the best thing for me so far......I gathered some confidence to take some anti-depressents that someone had recommended on here and that theydid'nt have the side affects of vomitting or nausea....I've been on them for 7weeks now and they have helped in many ways,even thou i don't have any family support or friends(except u lot) i don't feel sad or cry as much,i have been getting out each day eve