Kim,


I DO believe that those of us who were abused in some way which includes molestation as a young child, are suffering now with diff. symptoms but the most common is anxiety, panic attacks and depression. Why? I believe and it is solely my opinion, that like you said, as a child we didn't know any better. We were vulnerable, defenseless and so innocent. We didn't know that what was done unto us was wrong. We learned it was wrong much later in life through an educational child abuse movie that advocates for abused children, or perhaps in school or our parents. Either way, we learned this much later in life and now we live with the guilt, anger, frustration and other feelins as well. Some of these feelings I still deal with. I feel angry at my mother and hold her responsible for not being there to defend me. She wasn't a bad mom. She just happened to be working. I feel totally responsible for what happened to me. I feel that some of these feelings come back to us as our memories are triggered. For me, when my husband and I are intimate, some of these memories comeback and it ruins my mood. So having many suppressed feelings such as anger do lead to depression. We lost control then. Now we seek control over everything to make up for then and nothing satisfies us. It is a vicious cycle and that is why we must seek some kind of therapeutic counseling to help us overcome these feelings and thoughts that torment us through anxiety, panic and depression.


Thanks for your feedback as well.