Hmm I was never abused, had a pretty normal childhood.. no one in my family is an emet either. I think mine MAY be from the fact that my family is full of perfectionists and control freaks lol. My parents were a bit overprotective.. and also liked (and still do like) to tell me what to do and when/how to do it. So maybe I inherited their feelings of wanting control, but I was not able to get control myself (because they were the ones controlling me). That is really the only thing I can think of... espescially because what really scares me about v* is the lack of control and a fear of the unknown.