Het thank you both for your replies!! i know i have to try and stay strong, thank you for your advice and support, also for the pm, im just about to read it[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]. I do have a church near me also, maybe going to one would help me understand a bit more and give me some help. I used to pray to god about my emet when i was afraid and i used to watch the god channel which used to calm me down. Thanks again[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img].

Ruth x