Hey there Kayla,
First of all - *hugs*! Don't apologise for the rant, its always good to get this sorta stuff off your chest.Even just writing it down probably made you feel better, right? ^_^ We all go through these ups and downs...the good thing is, the downs don't last forever! Emet can be a real pain - it catches a ride with things like stress and gives you something ELSE to worry about, just when you really don't need it, and feel like you can't cope with everything as it is!
Please don't feel like you're backpeddling, because you're certainly not [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]I was feeling so low a few months back that I went to see a psychologist for a couple of sessions, and she gave me some great advice for thinking positively. When you go through rough patches, you tend to dwell on the negative things, rather than the positive. I know its tough, but try thinking about all the times in your life where you've feltREALLY good, and emet's been the last thing on your mind. You CAN get back to being like that...I didn't think it was possible at first, but you CAN do it!
I really hope everything goes OK! Please feel free to drop me a PM anytime, I love finding other Aussies on this forum.
Take care of yourself xxx
~Julie
\"We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars..\"