sorry for not being around

[arcky]

Hi there. I have to apologize- I see that many of you have been concerned about me and I cannot tell you how muchthat means. My intention is not to upset anyone. Nonetheless I have been extremely sick- some may be graphic. The stomach virus I had back several weeks agohad put me over the edge. I was so dehydrated, electrolytes were imbalanced, had to be hospitalized for it for a week. It was a dreadful experience. I vomited while I was there quite frequently- the worst part about it was, they did not care [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img] I frequently retched. Kept screaming bloody murder that I was going to be ill, let them know howfrightened I was- all they kept doing was handing me the basin each and everytime time- left me alone to tend to someone else. One nurse even told me to stop obsessing on vomiting. I tried stopping myself from being ill, but it did not work. At times, I clenched my fists so hard thatmy finger nails had broken the skin on the palms of my hands. I kept crying. I did not want to get sick but each time I had lost the battle. Cannot begin to express how frightening that was. My emetophobia is worse than ever right now thanks to all of that. I am seeing a psychotherapist who works out of the hospital. Hedoes not know a lotabout emetophobia but this is all I can doat the moment- better than nothing. I have no money to find someone specialized who can really help me. All I think about day and night is vomiting. I am getting sick a lot- it's like I had forgotten how to fight off the nausea. Instead of getting better from being sick- it's making my emetophobia even worse. Having migraines a lot too that is causing this to happen. Yet the whole time I was there, they did not find one thing wrong with me physically other than having the virus. I am an emotional wreck. I do not know what to do with myself- can't even think straight anymore. My ex still has my daughter with him. So afraidof losing herbecause of this. I am in bed by early evening often. Sorry I did not come to write about this sooner. I did not know what to say. Nonetheless I decided to come out and discuss it. My yahoo messenger is not working for some reason but if any of you have icq my number is 325085398. I have to go lie down now. Thank you for caring.


Blessings, Arcta

[Galadriel]

Hey Arcta!!!


Oh man Im so sorry about how they treated you. That really angers me how they just didn't care like that. Aren't there laws against that or something?? I mean they can see you are in a LOT of distress over this, and they are DOCTORS AND NURSES for God's sakes, and here they just treat you like your overreacting. Man Im sorry but Id like to have some really harsh words with them. Don't they know anything about phobias??? I think on this site somewhere there is a page that describes emetophobia really well, and if you could print it out and give it to your therapist, then he may begin to understand! I am so sorry you went thro all this, thanks to their treatment your worse off now. Man that really torks me...Ive dealt with people who have that attitude before...but a hospital??? They should be a lot more caring than that. Lemme see if I can give a link to that page.... Once again Im so sorry you went thro that, they should really care more than that. Man Im glad your out tho.

[Galadriel]

http://www.emetophobia.org/forum/for...sp?TID=1925&am p;PN=1

[crazybeautiful]

Hey Arcta, Glad to see you were able to post.


Hope you're feeling better soon.

[r311dude]

Next time tell the doctor's this, cause I've had doctor's flat out tell me emet doesn't exist , just say "This is how I feel, how can you tell me my feelingsaren't real?"

[terified girl]

OMG I cannot believe what you went thru, where in canada do you live ebcause I sure as hell never want to go to that hospital, and the worst part is that there is nothing you could do about it, you could tell them that you have a serious problem and they will just ignore you. Gosh I am so so sorry you went thru such hell at the hospital on top of being so ill too. The fact that you are able to even speak about it makes you brave and god bless you because I don't know how I would have handled a situation like that.


I really do hope you start to feel better soon and evetually you will stop panicking as much over this horrible experience because time does heal, you'll never forget but you will move on and hopefully start to remind yourelf that this was awful but it will probably never happen again as it did this time. So please so try to get plenty of rest and try to let this go so that you could start feeling better sooner rather than later.


PLease let us know how you are doing.


Sonia xxx

[snowangel]

arcta...I am so glad to see a post and a private message from you. You need to listen (read) what I am telling you very carefuly. Do not let this phobia destroy your state of mind !! I have been thinking about you a lot because you seemed to be going through a lot, not just the physical illness, but also the emotional side of things as well. You have been so brave so face the abdominal fear. You have been so completely ill and you did the right thing, you went to the hospital.
The doctors and nurses are completely desensitized to v***miting. Completely. You would think they would understand, but they are the LAST people who can conceptualize the phhobia. Who can blame them really, they see trauma, death, cancer all sorts of crazy things. A v**mt here and there is nothing to them at all. So you are doing the RIGHT thing but talking to someone who understands. You are from Canada? So am I...Toronto to be exact and if you want me to help you find a therapist who does not cost you anything and that OHIP covers please let me know. Do not pay for the health care if you dont have to.
Sometimes when this phobia starts to take over, I always remember: whats the worst that can happen? I v***mit and its over.
You faced it by yourself and for that, I am so proud of you. I dont kow you but my heart goes out to you. Thats it. there is no more to this awful phobia then what you encountered. It will never get worse than that and its time now to move forward. This is the best I can say over this forum...
I wish you only the best health & peace within yourself. Dont let this fear take over. You can take it over. You already have.

Snowangel

[2jo2]

Arcta,


I am so sorry for all your suffering lately. I've been wondering how you were doing, and now I'm just so sorry to hear about all that you've been through. I hope from the depth of my heart that you can begin to move past all this, physically and emotionally. I am angered by how you were treated in the hospital, I guess I would maybe expect treatment like that from doctors, but nurses should have *some* compassion for their patients whether they can relate or not to what they're going thru. I hope you feel better soon and can get back to some normalcy. Thinking of you....

[Galadriel]

Man, isn't there something you ( a general "you") can do to like demand docs and nurses hear you and help you some?? I mean I know they are desensitized to it, but if you are acting extremely upset about it, isnt it their obligation to help calm you down some?? I mean shouldn't they give you something to calm you down if you are in obvious prolonged distress like that?? I just think that is pretty unethical treatment.

[wing]

Goodness..I really dont know what to say but I truly hope that you get a full recoverysoon and that your psychotherapist can help you. I'm thinking of you here. ..That was so not nice of the Hospital..I would be so angry..

[sarahx]

Arcta, its good to hear from you, we hav been very worried. cannot imagin what you have been through with this illness. The people at th hospital were very wrong o dismiss ur emet as nothing. Thats very unfair. Im glad ur seeing someone and hopefull you will find someone who is more specialised to get u back on track. If you need to talk, private message me )


Hope you are feeling ok right now? And im sure things will be fine with ur daughter too.


Sarah xxx

[clairethebear]

Glad to have you back safe and sound Arcta. I am really sorry to hear what you have been through. I cannot begin to imagine what it was like. I don't think I would have survived it for a second. I am sorry about how you were treated by the health professionals. Sadly hospitals these days seem to be full ofstaff who don't care about other peoples feelings and have no idea how to look after someone who is distressed. You will get through this Arcta and you have the support of everyone on this site. I think you have been extremely brave and courageous throughout the whole experience and you shouldn't lose sight of that. I hope you find some comfort from us all here.

[Jenneh]

heya,


glad to see ur up and typing, if only a little bit, that experience sounds horrible, and i hope that nurse who said that stuff to you, feels very guilty.


but hey, what can we do, sumtimes its societies way of coping with things, trying to believe they dont exist. nevermind, we understandhow hard this must be for you. welldone for getting this far.


Jen xxxxx

[alliecat]

Wow, that sounds like a horrible experience! I am so sorry that you had to go through that. But, since you did, you should try and consider yourself a stronger person because you made it through! You're still here! I know its hard, and after an episode like that which smacks you in the face with your real life phobia, you can expect to take a little bit to recover emotionally and mentally. Just try hard, and keep talking to us, we're all here for you, and we'll help you get through this! Get plenty of rest too.

[eyecandi512]

Arcta, what a horrible experience!! I'm so sorry you had to be subjected to it. Nurses and doctod can be very insensitive to anything like you went through and I have realized that. I don;t think it's that they don;t care. I think it's a combition of them not understanding and having about a million others patients to take care of. Most often hospitals are understaffed. I can see how that would be so frightening for you though.


So did you just have stomach virus, or something worse? I am available whenever you need to talk. My aim name is eyecandi512 and you can always pm me. I am glad you are out of the hospital and feeling a little better. I personally don;t think you'll lose your daughter over this, you were very sick and im sure your ex understands.


Feel better, God bless, Danielle

[mbs730]

Hospitals are HORRIBLY understaffed. Like mentioned above they are desensitized to v since they see it all the time but it still does not make it RIGHT for them to have done this to you.. I would make a complaint! Best of luck if you do, and please rest up as much as you can.


Miriam

[discochic90]

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[Babydoll]

that sounds so awful... I cant imagine going through that! I hope your feeling better. I know the nurses seem cold, but they have SO many patients and not ebough nurses and it sucks for everyone.





I hope you feel better soon..