Terrible day

[rock_on]

I had a really terrible day. The worst I had in a long, long time. The main
thing was that I blew an audition. I got distracted and completely screwed
up. I feel like a falure as an actor. I'm obviously no good. But if I give up
that, I pretty much give up my life, because it's all I've ever really wanted
to do.
Also, my boss has been almost unbearable lately. I've been almost
wanting to get fired so that I don't have to put up with his crap anymore.
In fact, everybody I work with has had enough, but with everything else
going on, I just can't take it.
My family hasn't been helping either. I came home crying today and they
didn't even ask what was wrong. My dad has been going crazy because I
haven't paid him rent in a couple months, but I can't even afford it right
now.
I'm sorry for ranting, I just really need to get everything out. There's no
one else I can talk to. I feel completely alone right now. And to make
matters worse, my sister had an operation this morning and she's really
sick from it. My mom said she's been throwing up a lot ever since she got
home from the hospital. I'm scared that I'll hear it during the night. And
at the same time, I also feel really bad for her cause I know she must be
in a lot of pain right now.
If only there was some way to fast forward through time, or just erase
some things from memory...

[charzysbebe]

I know how you feel, believe me. I too feel that way at times. Trust me when I say it does get better. We all have our bad days, weeks, months, and even years. It is truly up to us how we want life to be; but being emets, sometimes it is impossible. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]


I have had a pretty rough life, and also wish that we can turn back time, or just fast foward through all the BS! But, when times are tough, I tell myself..."if it weren't for the bad, and really bad days....how would we know what good is??"


Sorry to hear about your sister v'ing alot. All I can say, is try and relax, and realize it is not a bug, and you can't catch it. Try relaxation techniques...read a good book and put on some head phones; that way you can drown out the sound! Hope I have helped ya some! [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img] Charlotte

[uidactinide]

You can't let one blown audition determine your worth as an actor, any
more than I could let one pot shard accidently broken by my shovel
determine my worth as an archaeologist. Everyone has their off days,
hon, and it sounds like you just had one of them. If this is what you
want to do with your life, don't give up on it. Ever. We may not be
able to exert much control over our emetophobia, but we can sure as
hell exert some over the other areas of our lives, right?



I'm sorry that your father is being really unsympathetic right now.
It's hard to feel like you're around people who don't care, and I wish
it didn't have to be that way for you. I think everyone deserves to
come home to a place where there are people who can offer support, even
if they're also having a bad day. You have us, though; don't forget
that.



As far as your sister is concerned, at the very least try to keep in
mind that she is v* from the pain; it isn't from anything that you can
get. That might not help very much, but hopefully it helps a little
bit. Since she's v* from pain, it's also unlikely that you'll hear it.

(-=POSSIBLY GRAPHIC=-)

People who v* from pain, especially the pain from having had surgery,
normally aren't very loud because it doesn't need to be such a violent
act of expulsion. The reason that the stomach "flu", food poisoning,
and overconsumption of alcohol brings on such loud, violent heaving is
because the stomach recognizes a poison and is trying to get that
poison out of the body as quickly and forcefully as it possibly can.
For a person who is pain, however, that isn't the case so there is no
need for the same violent spasms. Also, your body really does try to
protect you from as much pain as possible, and if you're already in
pain from surgery then the last thing your body wants to do is
intensify that pain with anything like that.

(-=End Possibly Graphic Part=-)

My aunt has had surgery after surgery (I'd estimate 6 within the course
of 2 years), and she has only v* loudly enough that someone could hear
her once. I won't go into details, but she was so bad by that point
that she was already back at the hospital and there were a LOT of
really severe problems that led up to that episode.



I hope this helps you feel a little bit better.

[holly18]

i always thought that v* after an operation was due to the anasetic (sp?) and other drugs rather than pain, because normally after an operation the person is on a morphine drip etc. But i suppose it depends on the type or surgery. I dont want to scare emets about operations, iv been put under general anasetic before and was fine. My aunt had to have a heart transplant, and had been out for a meal only a few hours before the operation and she was fine too, i thin it depends on the person.