Hello everyone! Hope this finds all of you well.
So I am doing exposure therapy with my therapist. I have gotten past words, drawings, cartoons and photos on the emetophobia resource website.
Those things are not that triggering for me. But yesterday, we were going to start sounds. We did the first sound on the website, which was a drunk guy vomiting at a party. About 30 seconds in, I stuck my fingers in my ears and she stopped it. But then instead of talking about it or doing relaxation exercises, I said I wanted to hear it again. She continued playing it, I had her stop again but this time I did not plug my ears. Then I finished the rest of it. I got through the entire video! I was so proud of myself. After that we worked on my hatred of the word barf. I wrote it down and said it like 50 times and after that it sounded harmless. I was so happy that I got through the video and did the writing and saying of the word even though I felt like I was going to make it happen, she reassured me I would be fine. I also told her that I feel that while exposure therapy will help me with my fear of others vomiting, it won't help with the fear of myself vomiting. So after we get through exposure we are going to do CBT. I think that was a really good session and definitely a step in the right direction. Just before that session I was becoming frustrated with myself and the lack of progress but now I don't feel so frustrated anymore!
I hope this gives some of you hope If I can do this, all of you definitely can as well! Stay strong lovelies. Hugs