I would do anything that I could, Yes, I am scared to death of the v*, but I would do the chemo anyways. There was a point a few years ago where I would literally say that I would rather die than v*, but now I feel very differently about it. I am still afraid and I don't want to v*, but now I put it in perspective a little better with things like that...Don't get me wrong though, I am still a total weanie when it somes to myself v*!!