holy scrammbled eggs, i NEVER knew there were people out there like me..........its incredible. i am absolutely TERRIFIED of being sick. i completely sympathise with the skin digging thing, i went one step further and actually cut my legs, on impulse and in panic, anything to make the thing stop and get rid of the feeling. ive had to get stitches 4 times from it, each a different scar. would go for days unend without eating. and then developed an eating disorder....didnt eat for a while, couple of very panicky days, lost a lil weight, decided i liked it and so cut down on food completely, it was great coz i was always hungry which me always safe, and i lost loads of weight, but mother nature stepped in and i became hungry, very hungry but wanted to keep control (our biggest requirement) and so i only upped my intake slowly and became very light at the same time. was ironic really because when i was so light i was in real danger of catching something but i didnt care, i always said to myself "if i have the energy to panic i have the energy to run so get out and earn your dinner" for about a year food replaced my panic but its back again with avengence and am terrified of everything. does anyine every get panic deja vu, where if you panicked in a certain place before that going there again brings panic on again, with the awful feelings you felt and thefierce need to get home or am i the only fool who gets that!
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