Just wanted to let you know that i sooooo understand what you are going through right now. I was also witnessed to and abused myself by my father as well so i have very little pateince with a lot of things.. hell even i feel like phsyically harming my husband sometimes and i know its not right but what can i do? i was never shown any kind of love from my father and worst part of all is that he denies that he ever hurt my mother and i to this day and it kills me because it has made me this way. Violence and cold heartedness i know.. love and caring and cuddling and pateince i dont so well and this is why i cant have kids right now either.. not only the emet but the fact that i could possibly hurt them or something could snap scares me most of all..
though i dont have any words of advice i just wanted to let u know your not alone
Hugs
\"Dance like no one is watching, Love like you will never be hurt, Sing like no one is listening, Live like heaven on earth!\" Mark Twain