@ roadtofreedom: is your youtube link safe to watch? any v*ing in it?

i am emet because i v*d constantly when I was little but could never tell my mom i felt ill because i thought it was shameful... and then in fourth grade (age 9) i woke up feeling ill one morning and went downstairs and called my mom (i was home alone) and said "this is the worst i've ever felt in my whole life" then v*d in the bathroom until my mom got home. she took me to the doctors and i began v*ing when i got there too. it terrified me so much that i couldn't stop feeling sick for weeks and weeks (classic symptom of anxiety and emet, but none of us knew that yet) so i was taken to the hospital multiple times and had a bajillion shots and tests done. then when i was in the hospital once, a girl started v*ing loudly and violently on the other side of the curtain in the room i was in. so scary!!! i've been emet ever since but haven't had it this bad, or anxiety, until this year.