Quote Originally Posted by sunnyskies View Post
I'm ok with living in fear, i'm not okay with v*.

That's exactly how I feel and have been feeling strongly a lot lately.

When fear becomes such a way of life it isn't really that scary at some point. It's weirdly comforting or normal in some way and you just cope with it. And it is the thing that you can control fairly often if you try.
I think you summed it up perfectly. I've lived with this all my life....it's kinda all I really know. I've come to terms with my fear and I cope with it to the point that it doesn't really affect my life in such a way that I really need to change. I've made my emet a strange comfort for myself....knowing that my fear of getting sick actually prevents me from getting sick by practicing good hygiene and staying away from sick people, etc. It's actually normal to me.

So when people try to tell me that it's not normal and that I need to change....it's kind of insulting to me. It's a part of my life and I'm okay with it. It may be abnormal to others, but it's normal to me.

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@KaydeeJayde: Don't worry, your post made sense. lol.