I was recently talking with a friend and somehow got on the topic of cancer. I have an underlying medical condition that puts me at a greater risk of developing cancer compared to an average person. Something that actually made me feel like I wanted to slap myself around my face was the fact that if I ever did get diagnosed with cancer all I could think of is, oh my god, I have cancer, I'm going to have to have chemotherapy and I will definetly be sick. Not that I have a disease that could potentiomally kill me. How bloody ludicrous of a thought is that!? I really do hate myself sometimes.