Tshell, thanks for your post. It's nice and comforting to hear that others are going through some of the same things. I too am shying away from my son at times. I feel horrible about it, but deep down inside my fear is controling me and I can't take it anymore. Others say that they would be doing more than just praying, but that's their opinion. My strong religious beliefs and the power of prayer has helped me get through a lot. But I do understand that there are steps that need to be taken in order to cope and overcome different circumstances in our lives.